11.8.12 ♥.
Dear Past,
Took me long to finally be able to pen my thoughts. I've sorted my thinking. I miss how cheerful and blissful I was two years ago. I miss how you would surprise me outside my school and at my workplace, bringing a smile to my face all the time. I never had to worry about anything at all and even if I hit any setbacks I knew things would be alright because you were here with me. I miss that sense of security you gave to me, and that sense of belonging which I was showered upon from you. I miss the little thrills you would give me, how you would prepare and plan everything for me nicely, just waiting to pamper me like a spoilt princess. I could depend on you for everything, and I was so comfortable all I felt whenever I was with you was pure bliss. I felt fortunate. I was blessed. Most of all, I miss how happy I was.
I felt nothing but pure happiness, and everyday when I woke up I would feel good, not like how I am now, so tired, so lethargic. Maybe I just want that feeling of not caring about unnecessary stuff like I felt before. My mind's not pure nor innocent anymore. I miss how gentle and demure I was, I hate how vulgar and full of hatred and anger I am now. I'm not the sweet-tempered little angel anymore, now I'm hot-headed and nothing near to being a yummy tart. I detest how scary I've become, doing things which I wouldn't have done in the past.
What we had was short-lived, but enough for me to remember how carefree I could be. I'm still working towards feeling this way again, though I'm not reaching my destination yet, but I'm on my way. I want all my worries, all the stress and all the unhappiness in me to be gone. I wanna be swept off my feet again.
Thank you for the ride.
I had a great journey. (:
Took me long to finally be able to pen my thoughts. I've sorted my thinking. I miss how cheerful and blissful I was two years ago. I miss how you would surprise me outside my school and at my workplace, bringing a smile to my face all the time. I never had to worry about anything at all and even if I hit any setbacks I knew things would be alright because you were here with me. I miss that sense of security you gave to me, and that sense of belonging which I was showered upon from you. I miss the little thrills you would give me, how you would prepare and plan everything for me nicely, just waiting to pamper me like a spoilt princess. I could depend on you for everything, and I was so comfortable all I felt whenever I was with you was pure bliss. I felt fortunate. I was blessed. Most of all, I miss how happy I was.
I felt nothing but pure happiness, and everyday when I woke up I would feel good, not like how I am now, so tired, so lethargic. Maybe I just want that feeling of not caring about unnecessary stuff like I felt before. My mind's not pure nor innocent anymore. I miss how gentle and demure I was, I hate how vulgar and full of hatred and anger I am now. I'm not the sweet-tempered little angel anymore, now I'm hot-headed and nothing near to being a yummy tart. I detest how scary I've become, doing things which I wouldn't have done in the past.
What we had was short-lived, but enough for me to remember how carefree I could be. I'm still working towards feeling this way again, though I'm not reaching my destination yet, but I'm on my way. I want all my worries, all the stress and all the unhappiness in me to be gone. I wanna be swept off my feet again.
Thank you for the ride.
I had a great journey. (:
We could have been infinite. @ 1:13 AM
