Dear readers, it has been some time since i've sat down to think and reflect on my life. Just gonna pen down some thoughts now, and will keep it short and sweet. I've been busy with work and im proud to say that im a month old on the job already, with zero mc/leave or whatsoever. My body clock has been adjusted back to that of a normal person, and i have cut down on the drinking and partying, not having late nights all the time already. I do hope that i would be able to keep up with this gusto that i have now and yes, lead an absolutely normal life.
The previous year i had a long list to my new year resolutions, and after re-reading them, i realize that not even the minority was accomplished. So this year i shall not be greedy, and i will just ask for one thing - I want to be happy. Yeah, that's it. Photos will be uploaded very soon when i have the time and prolly when im not lazy. There's too many to upload so yahhh, wait a lil.
In a nutshell, 2011 had been fucking awful and torturous. My life has never been so pathetic, depressing and meaningless ever before. I wouldnt spare the time and effort to explain again in detail what exactly made my life a shithole. I must say that after having gone through so much, my faith in God has increased pretty much and am thankful that ive made it through the rain. People say that when you lose something, you'll gain something. True enough, i have lost someone but have gained another. Comparisons need not be made, time will prove everything.
To You; I just wanna say, thank you for leaving me. Beyond the sadness and pain, you taught me a life lesson. I grew up. Im no longer the sweet young innocent little girl who is so fragile and weak. Im so much stronger now, and my life has been a complete change. You once made me the happiest girl and one that every other would envy. Thank you for every single thing, i know that you're happy now, and have found someone better. Now, i think it's my turn to be happy too. Let's both keep the memories etched at the back of our minds. I know it's time for me to let go and move on.
& to my dearest Boyfriend, i know how hard it has been on you for the past few months, and i know sorry doesnt amount to anything. Thank you for accepting me at my worst, showing me the care and concern that i do not deserve. I appreciate every little thing you have done for me, and somehow i feel that ive taken you for granted, thinking that you'll always be there no matter what happens and how i treat you. But it has also struck me that no matter how much you love me you might still get tired one day and leave. I dont wanna make the same mistake again, i dont want history to repeat itself, i dont wanna regret again. Everything you've said and promised me, i hope you'll walk the talk and not let me down. And i promise you, that i'll give my all and make things work out for us. Though we had a rocky start, im sure as time goes by we'll get better and better. Have faith in us.
I hope that this new year would be a much better year, and may all the unhappiness caused in 2011 be gone like the year itself.
Happy new year everyone(:
