i dont wanna make sucha big fuss out of my lost handphone.
i'll just treat it that i sold it to feed some DOG AND BITCH.
i love animals, so if stealing my phone can make you two(or maybe more)
have enough money to stay alive, then i gladly donate my phone to you.
i dont have friends like you.i can only call you THIEVES from now on.
and to think you can live with your conscience like that.
well done, the both of you.(maybe more)

so peeps, not to worry about my lost phone and my poor memory card.
I SIMPLY GAVE IT UP TO A DOG AND A BITCH.(:
no worries yah.

'N' levels start tomorrow.
i hope all my fourgrace peeps studied hard!
and that someone and sometwo from fourhope, you'll do okay.just try your best.GOOD LUCK TO ALL!

'O' levels coming soon, will not update as much.):
takecare.

so much has happened.
dreadful's the word;
weary's the feeling.

all these trouble caused me to be jilted to my senses.if none of these problems had appeared, i wouldnt be as sensible now.it took me so long to finally realise what a fool i have been.plain stupid.well, after twirling such a big round, i've found my way back on track at last.it really set me thinking what i've been doing and turning into for the past ten months or so.before i got to know you, i wasnt like this.

i thought i could change you into a better person.the timw spent, the effort put in, the love, care and concern i gave to you - unappreciated.

i treated you the best i could.when everyone else had to look at you with different eyes, when they all thought you were a good-for-nothing jerk, i was there to defend you.when people talked behind your back, i stood up for you.no matter how much you hurt me, i didnt give up on you.i didnt look down on you at all despite the fact that you do nothing but idle around.

everything i gave to you, everything i sacrificed, what do i get at the end of it?
broken friendships, wasted time and an almost destroyed future.

was it worth giving up all these things?
i used to say 'yes', but now when i look back, its a big nono.
i realise you're not worth it.

i loved you from the bottom of my heart, and yet you could still doubt me.you dont even have the basic trust in me.you claim your friends dont like me, that's why you cannot be with me.but hey, my friends dont like you too.
did it affect the way i felt about you?
nope, not even a single bit.
see? thats just one of the countless differences we have.
we're from two entirely different worlds, thats why we cannot get along well.
according to what you always say; you love me.
i wont doubt you at all, because everyone has different ways of expressing themselves.

&for you, maybe the way you love me is the kind that i cannot accept.what appears to be your "true feelings" for me is selfish.we cant go on like this, i cant carry on too.

i should have come to my senses earlier, but at least i woke up.i know whats important and whats not.you're not the MIP in my life anymore, and im happy to say that.from now on, anything you do does not concern me.i cant control the way you wanna live your life.i have no say because to you i am just a nobody.

a nobody.
this is something that im gonna find it hard to accept.

its true, what the other say.many people dont like me now cos of what happened.so what? none of you or your friends can bother.i may have a few friends only, compared to you who has ALOT more than me, but i can gladly say that almost all my friends are true to me.i cant say the same thing about you, and you know it better then anyone else.is there anyone you can count on when you're in need? i think you have the answer aye?

and why did all these happen?
its cos i loved you.
big mistake.

what's mine will always be mine.if we're really meant to be, then love will find its way home one day.(which i honestly dont think we're made for each other)

and oh yeah.i lost my phone.
i think you know about it yah?
after this incident, i spent alot of time thinking and reflecting.
somethings are meant to be forgotten.
its all predestined for that person to steal my phone,
and its fated for our stuff in the phone to be lost.
God's giving me a red light to you.
i have to accept this arrangement, whether i like it or not.
its all clear for me to see now.

im better off without you,
and you're better off without me also.
so yeapyeapps, byebye gavin.


and you know what?
i think its not that im not good enough for you.
its you who doesnt deserve to be with me.(:


PEOPLE;
Annabelle (CATCH ME WHEN I FALL)
Dion
Terence
Yongsheng
Prasad
Cheecheng
Shirlene
Sandra
Lina
Amanda.S
Rachel
Xinmin
Heather
Kaiwen
Noren
Yishih
Gillian
Shermaine
Jacqueline(yeap, that one day:D)
Berlinda
Wenda
Benjamin
Mr Lee
& a few others out there..

hey dearies.thank you so so much for being there for me whenever i need you.
i know that when im in any kind of trouble of difficult situation, i can count on ya'all.
i'll be there anytime too.thanks thanks thanks a million :P


and most importantly, my dear kohliangcai,
im very happy to know that your shoulders are there.heh!
thanks alot for your support and encouragement all these while.
although you dont really show it out,
i know how much you care.
so really, thank you.(:
dont smile hor!
you think funny uh?



when a vase breaks, no matter how hard you try to fix and patch up the broken pieces, the cracks will remain there forever...

O.o
brenda's blog seems to have attracted the eyes of many peeps
nowadays uh? yeapp, so i have to make it clear, in the previous posts,
i wasnt referring to who you think it is.BIG NO.its just the initial nicks are
the same.but its not her can already.so all the expressos, dont look at her with different eyes.
she doesnt have anything to do with my angry posts.so yeah; stupid misunderstanding.


with less than a month to 'O' levels, i should start digging my own grave now.
i havent been putting in constant effort in my studies, plus i CANNOT(means i tried)
concentrate at all.why is this happening mans? i have to start, NOWWWWWWWW.
its now or never.recently, or rather these few days, i lost my motivation to study, and had a hard time searching for a new one.I CAN HAVE FUN AND DO WHATEVER I WANT IN JUST ONE AND A HALF MONTHS' TIME! yeapps, this is attractive enough.add many oil kaykay!(:

and 'N' levels are even nearer.gosh, peeps please study hard!you guys are not stupid, just lazy.so get those brain juices working! (i should tell this to myself too) and boy, you too.this is your last chance, im not kidding kay.please do well for your own sake.



with everything that is happening to me now,
its difficult for me to get on track.
when i think about it,
i feel like throwing in the towel.
but i know i cant,
cos its too much a price to pay.
so i guess i should just endure.
take heart. =)



i dont know what's the meaning of this luh.maybe you dont want me to get hurt when you tell me the truth, but i feel worse like that.shit, you're sucha coward.

seriously, EMO IS COOL(: this is like the 56874152105th time im repeating it, but i still have to emphasize this.EMOMOMO ISH COOLIOSXZ! i know this sounds stupid and ridiculous, but when you're feeling down and out, its the best time you can get to write out your emotions openly and writing emo-ish helps improve your command of english! happens to me all the time, which proves the point again that EMO IS COOL(:

wooots~! i think i live in another world, not earth.i just got to know that teachers from a particular secondary school have blogs and upon reading em, i think that kcp teachers should learn from them and let this be the in thing luh.walaoooos, *********secondary teachers are KEWLIES!!!! and some of their posts are far more interesting than students'.


Honey,
cos everytime i see your name,
i feel a twist inside of me;
my heart pauses two beats.
it may be a twist of jealousy,
but not of hate.
it is a twist that is reminiscent
of the past we've had.
i want you to know
i miss it badly.
i want you to know
i still care.
i want to know if
this is all we'll ever be.
i want to know if this
is something we still share...

To listen and see,
what catches my attention
Seeking what little treasures,
that come my way
And perhaps, biding my time,
so that i can fly.

i seem to have my vision blurred,
i cant see clearly now.
trust;
this is the word.

uber shitness.


you dont know how much i need you, cos you dont care.and its cos there's no more love, thats why you dont care.i know ive got to trust you, but what you're showing me now is the opposite of what you used to tell me.gavin ah, can you be like last time? cos im losing my sense of direction already.

in this confused state of mind(- reaction), im only filling my empty head with one
word, "EXHAUSTED".

seems like blogging has become a haste, cos its making people misunderstand and having an
awfully wrong ideas as to what is going on, and its hurting some parties.this is definitely no good.):


Girl, i cant possibly be mentioning that someone's name, cos it would be like some personal attack or something, which will get me into trouble.so i cant disclose the identity so openly.i have to repeatedly tell you this again, that wasnt directed at you.i didnt mention any name at all, just a nick.whatever i told you was true, according to my point of view.i know sometimes people can have wrong judgements, and yeah, probably i did misunderstand you for what i saw yesterday.but im thankful you actually understand what im going through and how i feel.i still treat you as my friend, and i assure you there's no hard feelings.dont take to heart what i shouted at you just now, cos i dint mean it.they're just words of anger.i dont blame you too, cos you didnt have any bad intentions too.you can choose to believe or to doubt me.i cant force you on this one yeapps? i'll apologise for misunderstanding you, cos you claimed you are innocent, but it will not be a so-called "public" one, cos i seriously dont think there is a need to.because im not totally at fault too.plus, i think i've already explained the situation clearly alr.i'll tell you that im sorry, and i will mean it from the bottom of my heart.this is a promise, and i wont break it.i'll remember what you said, dont trust people too much and not every girl can keep their promises.


there's no escaping from fights and quarrels every now and then.this is part and parcel of life, and this is how we grow up.i guess its just the level of maturity one has and how he/she decides to solve a particular sticky situation.and from what i know, both me and her hasnt grown up yet.guess it will be a matter of time before we both really know what we're doing.no, im not saying we're childish; we're just... not there yet.we've got a lot more to learn and especially me, there are many endless things for me to deal with now, and i gotta face up to some facts yeah.and dear God, im thankful for what happened today because i learned something today, and my friend learnt something too.i think in this little misfortune i had today, i had actually gained something worthwhile, and i've grown a little more.(:


P.S. snowbelle, i hope you dont do this again, cos i wont allow you to badmouth my dear boy.one more time i hear this, you're it! and so sorry for getting a few innocent parties involved in this thing.SORRY!!!




You're just using me; taking advantage of me; taking advantage of my feelings.
You're pretty good at it too.
It's pretty obvious.
I'm not dumb.

Maybe things have changed and maybe they haven't.


Don't try to figure out what I'm talking about.


Happy and sad day.
You ruined my day.

You're still all that i want.


I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I love you

BETRAYAL.
to be unfaithful in guarding, maintaining, or fulfilling a trust;
to disappoint the hopes or expectations of someone;
or to decieve and be disloyal.

i didnt know this word would appear in my dictionary.i could give in to you for everything else, no matter how unreasonable you were, how bad you treated me.i still loved and pampered you the same.BUT GAVIN ANG LET ME TELL YOU, WHAT YOU DID TODAY WAS REALLY OVER THE LINE.THIS IS SOMETHING I WONT FORGIVE YOU FOR.I NEVER THOUGHT YOU WOULD BETRAY ME LIKE THIS.i hate you, i really do.

SLUT.
a dirty, slovenly, slattern woman;
an immoral or dissolute woman; BITCH/PROSTITUTE.

hey you cheap piece of shit.all the time i have kept the anger inside me, without a word of complaint.i beared the hatred i have for you and kept my mouth shut every single time.i choose to close both my eyes and not care about what the fuck you did.this is the last straw already.i swear everytime i see you now, the word "CHEAPO" will come out of my mouth.AND THIS MEANS YOU.you may not know, but its really disgraceful to be labelled as a vixen by a girl.i want you to know, BRENDA YAP HATES YOU TO THE MAX AND YOU ARE A FUCKING CHEAP AND LOOSE GIRL.

Labels: SNOWBELLE SUCKS LIKE YOU DO.

today i was not-so-emo, thank God.
shall keep my post short and sour, cos i wanna watch teevee.
hurr hurr, prelim results are suckysucky shiatttts.update more when i get everything back.

thanks wongyufeng for your funland treat.heh been quite some time since we talked.
heh, but please watch that temper of yours uh.remember, patience has its limits.you know what im referring too yeah? yeapps cheer up, i wanna see you smile, sonny boy.MOMMA LUBBS EUU.

kay thats about it for today, more basketball with smalltwo, maomao, jacc(forgot which pie you are).and oh yes! i made a new friend today, HI JESLYNE(:

and and and... ANGSHIYUAN! you better meet me soon or else...
*baaaam!*

O.o & im like neglecting my friendster.):
++++ im lazy to reply taggys now, so ps wor.




its been more than two weeks alr.if you really dont want this, just fucking hell tell me the truth.dont act like some loser and come smile at me.

HELLO, HELLO! HEADLINES FOR THE DAY/WEEK!
- I HAVE EXACTLY ONE MORE MONTH TO THE MOST DETESTED 'O' LEVELS, WHICH STARTS ON THE 16TH OF OCTOBER 2008.

- MY GRADUATION FORMAL LUNCH CUM CEREMONY WIL BE HELD NEXT FRIDAY, 26TH OF SEPTEMBER 2008.

- MY STUDY LEAVE STARTS ON THE 10TH OF OCTOBER 2008. IN OTHER WORDS, THURSDAY, 9TH OCTOBER 2008, WILL BE MY LASTLAST DAY IN KCPSS.): ): ):

- GRADUATION DINNER/ GRAD NIGHT/ PROM NIGHT WILL BE HELD ON MONDAY, 17TH OF NOVEMBER 2008, AT ORCHARD HOTEL.7PM.

- 'O' LEVEL RESULTS WILL BE RELEASED IN TERM 1, WEEK 2 OF YEAR 2009.ZOMGGGG, THATS FAST.



okay, brenda has decided to start mugging soon. **notice the word soon, which means not confirmed when yet.hahaha, omg loserrrrrrrrr.and ah yes, as promised, i'll continue being emo until the day i get better.hurr hurr.i spent a day to think of this kays, and i stress once again, EMO IS COOL(:


Thanks For Everything, I'll Miss You.

I don't ever wanna lose you,
I would gladly have you stay by my side forever.
But if you really must go,
Then it's okay I'd say. It's okay, it's okay.
'Cos no matter how hard I'm gonna find it to accept,
It won't change the fact that I'm not the one you think about each night.
Still, I want you to know that nothing will change my love for you.
You'll still hold th key to my heart, years from now.

Have a good start of you brand new life,
A life without the one who used to be in your heart.
You will not be there for me,
I'd be just another girl, one that you'll walk past without noticing.
I never knew what love was all about,
Until you came into my life.
& I've never known what it felt like to hurt so much,
Until you walked out on me.

It's hard, and hurts tremendously.
I know it sounds absurd, I know it's out of the question.
But my heart just cannot stop yearning for you to come back to love me.
I dont know why I'm feeling like this,
I just can't help it, it's tearing me apart.
I wonder how long more i can take this misery.

It's been so long,
Since the day we met.
We've come so far,
Only to let loose now.
You found the real me,
But you also made me lose myself.



iwantustobeassweetandlovingaslasttime.canyoudoitforme?

hmms, im feeling really extrrrremely down, but shall stop posting emo-ish thingys for today.
**NOTE: today only.yeapps

last prelim paper, sucked as much as the others, and finally after like three weeks im finally gonna attend normal lessons like i did for the past 3 years plus plus.yay, i miss sitting in class doing nth.hurr hurr.

oh, i gotta say, THANK YOU TRISHA STUDENTTTTTTT!
for uhhhh.. .complimenting on my blog song.its nice yeah?heh heh.
and for my picca, aww thats so sweet.:D thankies!

and my dear WINDY;
dont keep having negative thoughts.if you love her you must trust her, dont care what the others say.because true love cannot be measured by words.understand????!!!! you have my fullest support! SUNNY LOVES YOUUUU~!

shall keep the post short because im off to watch my teevee show.you know the 9pm serial?uber nice yawwww!:D



when i saw you again, i started to cry inside.i feel so insecure, but kishen did cheer me up a little.at least he cares, and thinks im sweet.thats so unlike you.

chinese prelims sucked to the maxxxx! i didnt know a single shit.
and oh guys, im lazy to reply taggys these few days.


Intuition, maybe.
Or assumptions.
Maybe it's just my gut feeling.
Or maybe I just know you too well.

It'll be very soon. I can feel it.

I'm numb, i hope?


Hardly anyone understands how I feel.
I thought you were one of the few, but you proved me wrong.

You're just like the majority, and its kinda disappointing.

all that results now is nothing but painful acceptance.

Same old, same old.

The words are choking me up now and I know I'm gonna sound like an idiot. My thoughts are all mushed up in my mind, I don't even know what the main thing is that's making me feel like this. When I saw you today, memories immediately flashed to my mind. Everything was exactly the same, except me. I've changed. You haven't, and probably never will. If I had chosen the old road, history would really repeat itself entirely.days ago, I was the happiest girl alive. Now, all I have are memories of the past.

I feel helpless again.
It's like I'm disconnected from my body, I'm just watching in despair as my body falls into the abyss.

When will I get myself out? Maybe never..

Everytime things like this happen, I forget an important promise I made to myself.
Maybe I have to imprint it on my brain.
On second thoughts, its not a maybe; its a MUST.


Baby I don't wanna waste another day
Keepin it inside, it's killing me
Cause all I ever wanted comes right down to you
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you, every time you leave
I'm inconsolable



tears and more? love me?

I have come to a devastating conclusion.

"The one who can make you cry is the one who can make you smile again."

How true.
Let go, move on, let go, move on.
I have tried hard.
To no avail.
I should put in more effort.
I should try harder.
But where do I get my strength to do so from?

The obligations in life.

Sometimes I just feel like wasting away.
Yet, I know that isn't feasible.


I am thinking about a lot of things.I recall.


Love is indeed blind.
And I wonder how long I'll go about with my eyes shut.
shiatttts!




i really do hope everything will turn out fine, cos i dont wanna lose you.

I AM OFFICIALLY ON A DIET(:


time to lose weight cos everyone says im fat.wakakakas.


and guess what, im eating macs now -.-


bloody liar.


eww i suck today.


post again for updates, if there is any.


rofl!






PEGGY, years ago.HAHAHA!
okay, not funnayye.










whatever, i dont care anymore.

watched 4bia again today, but this time, its the whole movie.i finished it.walao i scream at almost every part luh.tmd, the peeps who were watching with me didnt even freak out lors. gosh, imma goner siols.why am i so bloody timid huh?! kay the part which i missed that time was freaking scary can.i screamed till i started grabbing ppl, and i cried(for some unknown reason). rofl.(:

but! i rate 10/10 for this movie.:D although its abit dumb, it still made my hair stand.more of these movies yo! kekeke.

i was busy conferencing with a few people for the past few nights that i hardly got enough sleep.so now the result i get is heavy eyebags around my panda eyes.cool huh?

will be away from home tomorrow.my rents are out - daddy to bangkok and mommy to bintan. they've gotten me a babysitter, in case i run wild. -_-'' I AM ALREADY SIXTEEN.this is how lame they can get.but i guess it'll be alright cos auntie J (the babysitter) will prolly bring me out for some fun, like imma small kiddo. aww, that sucks, but everyone has their times right?

two more days till im back to the school hall, with my arse stuck on the chair.stupid prelims.i aint gonna do okay at all, i havent been studying for the past i dont know how long luh. *smacks myself*

O LEVELS IN A MONTHS' TIME. (: (: (:
can you belive that? ohmy, i really gotta start mugging.me dont wanna end up repeating or what.cheerios, good luck to me~!


you know what? erina chew is a fucking bitch. i doubt anyone wont second that.heh heh.

toodles!(:

hey i miss you, a great damn lot.

i got tagged to do this thingy..


1. The person who tag/pass you is?
*tan chee cheng.
2. Your relationship with him/her?
*she's my biatchhh.
3. Your five impression of him/her?
*bitchy/bimbotic/irritating/stupid/dumb
4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
*wake up early in the morning just to wish me good luck for my paper.
5.The most memorable thing he/she has said to you?
*xiao jie~
6. If he/she become your lover, you will?
*dont worry, she wont.
7. If he/she became your lover, he/she has to improve on?
*there is no if.
8. If he/she became my enemy, you will?
*slap her across the face.
9. If he/she became your enemy, the reason will be?
*i dont like her.
10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her is?
*make her smarter, lol.
11. Your overall impression of him/her is?
*i alr said, she's a bitch!(:
12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
*the peeps around me love me cos they know me.hoho
13. The characters you love of yourself are?
*i know my limits, unlike some sickening girl.
14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are?
*brainless, always doing the wrong things, allow myself to be bullied by someone.
15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
*myself.:D
16. For people who care and like you, say something to them.
*you've made my life worthwhile.
17. 10 people that you can think of,
1. ANNABELLE KHOO
2. SHERMAINE CHONG
3. WENDA LIM
4. BERLINDA LEE
5. CHERYL ANG
6. AMANDA SOH
7. LINA TAY
8. AMANDA LIM
9. CELIA KOH
10. SHIRLENE LOH

18. Who is no.6 having a relationship with? -amanda.S
- darren lew.(:
19. Is no.9 a male or female? -celia.
- girlgirl.
20. If no. 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? -lina and shirlene
- definitely not.
21. What is no. 2 studying about? -shermaine
- the subjects she is taking. -.-
22. When was the last time you had a chat with no.8? -amanda.L
- since last friday.
23. What kind of music band does no.8 like? -amanda.L
- no idea.
24. Does no. 1 has any siblings? -annabelle
- two sisters.plus a twin,:D
25. Will you woo no.3? -wenda
- nonono, she woo me.haha
26. How abt no.7? -lina
- she's shy, so i guess i gotta do it.
27. Is no.4 Single? -berlinda
- yeah.
28. What is the surname of no.5? -cheryl
-ANG.(: same as baby.hoho
29. What's the hobby of no.10? -shirlene
- she likes to talk about lame stuffzzz.
30. Does no. 5 and 9 get along well? -cheryl and celia.
-they dont know each other.
31. Where is no.2 studying at? -shermaine
- kcpss.
32. Talk something casually about no. 1. -annabelle
- she is stupid and dumb, but i love her.:P
33. Where does no.9 live at? -celia
- not sure, but its somewhere in bishan.
34. What colour does no. 4 like? -berlinda
- oopppps, idk wor.):
35. Are no.5 and no.1 best friends? -cheryl and annabelle
-nope.they're strangers.
36. Does no.1 have any pets? -annabelle
- she has a phone.
37. Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world? -lina
- nope, she is second.cos im the sexiest.LOL!


*** i dont wanna tag people on this.so those who wants to do then please feel free.


GILLIAN CHUA WANWAN!

thankii3s berri berri muchh fferr yOur umbwellaaaa yeshhterdae worsxz.(: butbutt,, iiexx steww q0rtts wetwett nerhhs.hees,, xiie xiie nii alsho fferr wakiinqq myye pwecii0us babby upp inn dda m0rninqq fferr dda pastt thr33 daes worsxz.mee lubbslurbbesxz euus manymanyy~!


i promised i wont complain if im angry about anything.so i wont breathe a word at all.you should know im unhappy about you and her, if you will, please spare a thought for me.she is your goodfriend, but dont forget.i am your girlfriend.

back from baby's house.camped there for a few hours with precious, kishen and chelsea(wenjie).K is a very nice and funny person.today was my first "encounter" with him.yeapyeapps, he's a good guy.just a little to the horny side.chelsea -- me dont like him.he stole the blankie(blanket) from me luh! the aircon was on and i was freezing.stupid chelsea keep snatching from me till i always fell off the bed onto him.and he kept bullying my precious by asking him to massage him.sickening la, wj.ppl tired right! so mean.hoho, precious has a small bed, but still big enough for me, him and chelsea to squeeze on it.(: so yeah, it was funny yah.

in the morning...
i had many many wake up calls from my dad, mom, terence and dion.stupid.the princess needs her beauty sleep lor.i slept at 3 ytd la.thanks to terence ng jing yew for keeping me awake.we were on the phone for hours and he made me laugh non stop.:D [eh eh, reply alr! reply alr! reply alr! E****! E****! E****!......pause for 1 second... eeyerr..YS.] *haha, terence.inside joke*

outran for a short while before heading to 197 to study.then realized i forgot to bring my study materials.so ended up slacking. :P then met precious. (refer to aboveeee)

yeah, good luck to all for has N level exam tml.esp gavin ang.



hey, its been so long.i missed you so much baby.:D

lalala-ed with two of those very amusing and terrific people you can know.it was hardcore -- 5 hours. *smirks* today's session wasnt all that good, but i felt a little better than before.a few pitches off here and there, plus some MAJOR distractions from them and the food in front of me, i wasnt able to perform exceptionally well today.but its okay, i had a little fun though.thank you, the both of you, for cheering me up.



I feel like lashing out to the whole world.I wish my head would stop throbbing. It's making me think of depressing thoughts.

Disappointments.

Wearing out.

Tearing down.

Who can I blame?
No one but myself.

Same old thing. Never ceases.


Can someone give me a reason not to hate myself?
Cause I can't seem to find one.

I think I'd rather be someone who shows her emotions openly to you. Because like that i don't have to act.But too bad. Naturally, I'd hide all sadness in front of you. And I hate it.Because it's difficult.



its been one week already.baby come back.(!!!)

QUEEN.

Brenda Yap.
21o892
I ♥ to eat.

"Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know." - Jeremiah 3:3


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