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today.31.08.08

Brenda celebrated gramp's birthday yesterday at Miramar Hotel.the place was alright, and the food was uber good.i love buffets, cos they make me F-A-T! *groans* Then woke up early in the morning today for some one-day excursion thingy with my relatives.my aunty J very pro at getting good bargains like this.its $35 per person, which includes a ride on the singapore flyer, a yummy buffet lunch, and a singapore river hippo cruise.not bad eh?

yeah, after that we wanted to go somewhere else to have fun, but i had to go home cos i had awful cramps.stewpid.ive been on the flyer umpteen times, so i wasnt really amazed at everything. but i still had fun though.pictures belowwwwww~

hey, im so glad you finally moved on.im sorry for wasting your time for the past one year.but now that i know you have found someone else, im really happy for you.cos i wont have to feel bad anymore.i chose this path myself so i have to make good of it and walk down this path.i'll never regret and i hope you wont too.whatever might happen in time to come, i know you will be here for me, just like everyone else.thank you for every little thing you have done for me behind the scenes.you think i dont know, but i know.be true to her, dont ever be fickle-minded again.i dont wish to hurt another girl.promise me she's all you'll ever think about alright? and yes, you'll be happy with her.i'll be happy too, we will be happy.last long and all the best! thanks again, hxf.(:

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celebrated teachers' day in school today.see, i was slacking in class cos there was class contact time and was watching "Die Hard 4".then suddenly rachel called me to say i had to perform for the concert.like wthhhhhh. :/ sooooo, i found out that i had to dance that stupid L-O-V-E dance.the exact same one that i did 2 years ago, together with my dearest Peacies.(: then when all the peacies who are supposed to perform gathered tgt in the staffroom with mrs razali and ms cheok(who were our sec.2 form teachers), we only had 5 mins to practice.i was like whatttt?!?! the last time we danced that thing was 2 years ago leh.how to remember the steps.so ms cheok insisted we rehearse once.just once.and surprisingly, we all made it.once the music was played, we all rmbed the steps.amazing huh? lol.was fun though.i have stage fright.so when i went up on stage i practically stared at blank space.last year already, so this was the last chance for me and the peacies to thank the teachers for everything they have done.it's all appreciated.:D

watched 4bia with wenda today.i swear this movie will freak the shits out of you.but we missed the last part cos i had to go.had dinner appointment so had to rush home.so i prolly will catch the movie again.4bia anyone?




you havent been talking to me or answering my calls.we havent been meeting up or msging much.what the hell is going on?!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST MOMMYYYYYY~!(:
we're always bickering, but thats how we communicate.we're always laughing for nothing, but thats what makes us alike.we always cry when we read touching storybooks, but that shows how feeling we can be.we love to gossip, but we're girls! you shout at me, i scream back.i love the way we are, i love your nagging, i love your false accusations, i love the way you scold me, i love the way you're pissed at me.thanks for making my life so interesting.you're my dearest mommy, and thats what makes you so special. I LOVE YOU.


hello, im taking a break from my prelims, cos the damn school put it on hold till next term. ''-.-
september holidays are next week! im not excited, why why why..? N levels next week, wednesday - friday.): shall give my little precious and my dearest friends all the support i have.(: good luck to all, give your best yeah?

the week has been bad.cos err..
- didnt study for prelims
- didnt complete all papers
- practically didnt get any answer correct
- pms
- mood swing
- problem with someone

uh-oh.think i'll suffer from depression soon.im very stressed kay.i dont know how to put it into words, i just feel terrible inside.whoa! my O levels are soooooooo near and im not even doing a fuck.oh man.



i miss you much, darling.no more screwups, please? i cant lose you at this point of time.we'll be alright yeah??

BRENDA OFFICIALLY TURNED SIXTEEEEEEEEEEN ON 210808!(:
THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR EVERYTHING.BUT MY SOMEONE SPECIAL SPOILT MY DAY THOUGH.
NEVERMIND, THE NEXT BIRTHDAY WILL BE BETTER!(:
UPDATES AND PICCAS ON THIS SPECIAL DAY LATER ON COS...

PRELIMS ARE HEREEEE! AND IM NOT ALLOWED TO USE THE COMP):
MY RENTS WANT ME TO STUDY.( LIKE I WILL...) HAHAHA!

SO I WONT BE UPDATING TILL SOON~
TAKECARE ALL.:D


we've hit another rough patch, but im confident that we'll make it through.

guess what?i was right.
i knew you wouldnt be so nice.
now you know why i didnt wanna tell you?
thanks for ruining it.
i wont get any better tomorrow too.
screw.

today = no fun.
i didnt meet precious today.): sad luhhhs.
after school me chiong-ed home to sleep.
and woke up like now..?
okay, imma pig.

oh gawdddddd.i miss my precious.*sniff sniff*
kay, byebye.
ive got nth else to say.boohoo!


imyf*ckingmuchtothemaxxxluh!

hello all~!
imma bad girlgirl today.boohoo! i zao school at recess time for precious.): dammit! me gotta stop being stewpid.lol, amanda lim...hahaha.anw, i think math rock.cos no matter how hard i try, i still cant seem to get them right.sians.

lunched with precious and saw his sister. O.o then watched some stewpid videos, which precious keep claiming they're funny.trust me, the videos are NOT amusing at all; not even one bit.then met shermaine and berlinda.(: slacked.then off to tution.

met precious, xiaoan, xiaocai.saw dion and prasad.lol, then went off to supernova to slackkk.the three guys went everywhr to find a lighter for their pathetic cigarette.in the end also dont have.HAHAHA, jokeeeee~ had few rounds of laughing and talking about some gross stuff :D
ewww, but i like.cos my friends rock.esp precious, so cuteeeeeeee neh.(:

NO WHITLEY GUY CAN REPLACE HIM MAN!(: (: (:

okay.bye.:P


if only things can remain the way they are right now...

ANNOUNCEMENT: AVRIL LAVIGNE'S CONCERT ON THE 7TH OF SEPTEMBER 2008!(: ANYONE WANNA GO??


okay, my day wasnt very good today.some shithead spoilt it.firstly, someone feels ashamed to be seen with me.secondly, someone's friends are more important.thirdly, someone said he wanted to meet me and when i called him, he said he was just faking me.and lastly, someone lost my damn calculator.how cool is that, huh?

gah gah gah.things will get better yeah?!:D


what can i do to make you treasure me more..?

hello all:D
my relatives celebrated my special day yesterday at paramount hotel.(: me had buffet for dinner.i dont know why, but i seem to love contradicting myself.cos i say i wanna jian fei, but still eat so much.esp last week when i had roti prata for dinner almost every single day.(: its okay, FAT IS GOOD.to all the fattys out there, rock on!:D

currently bored at home.supposed to study for upcoming prelims, but i still cannot get my stubborn ass to sit on the chair and start revising.holy shittttttttx!):
help.




i miss you honey.

hi.today's friday, and im only 6 days away from a special day.

esp to mr low: im sorry i had to make that decision.you knew i wasnt telling the truth, but i hope you will understand cos there are somethings that i cant say.i know you'll be put into a very difficult postition, but what you told me just now really made me think twice.i'll stay with my decision, i wont change my mind.sorry, but after hearing what you said, you made me feel that the "wasted" time i had in council was a little more worthwhile.i'll remember you words, thank you for respecting my decision.

i was bursting into hysterical laughters just like when i was in sec one.and i was like telling everyone my apparently not-so-funny jokes.it not my fault they're not amused whats.rofl, school was absolutely boring, cos i had 6 free periods in a row.i slept throughout.PIG~!

okay, im officially stressed now.prelims start on the 25th of august, and im still in holiday mood.
mytians me gotta workkkkkk hard.): I NEED MOTIVATION.

something just doesnt feel right.& i dont know wtheck it is.



you're not treating me right.you promised to treat me well, but im nothing more than a maid.you werent like this last time.

YAAAAAY, i got my comp back alr.hohoho:D now im gonna upload the piccas i wanted to upload eras ago.there's about a few hundreds of em, so i shant be posting all of em up.yeahhh~


had my O level english oral today.i didnt do very well.shit =X


no point crying over spilt milk alr.so liddat lor.hais.


LOL, a picture speaks a thousand words.
many pictures speak a billion words.
:D overdue piccas!

THREE CHEERS FOR ME!(:
aye aye, i got 35/40 for english prelims oral! and 12/15 for physics prelims practical.(:
BOTH ALSO HIGHEST IN CLASSSSSS! sorry luh, if you think im bragging.but you know, i SELDOM get the chance to show off my results de wor.haha.:D so be happy for me ba!

chemistry prelims practical was a goner.i got 6/15 only.): fail.but i sill got the highest among the clique yo! fyi, clique refers to gillian chua, chew yishih, and renice koh.(: *grins*

YAAYYYYY! daddy says im getting my computer back again tomorrow.(:
like finallyyyyyyy~ cos i really dont like laptop nerhs.

school was quite okay today.except pe.><
some huge cockroach made clique and i + yijen scream.
leonard goh got F9 for chinese o level and the whole class cheered for him.LOL


joke of the day: i quit council and principal wants a good explaination from me or else he will personally look into the matter.like wtffff?!

oh oh, tomorrow's O level english oral.NO MORE SCREWUPS!
and tml, a very special day.x33


hey, in case you dont know, you're still that very special friend to me.although i no longer mean as much to you as last time, i still want you to know that no matter what, you'll always hold a special place in my heart.i'll be honest yeah? when i "contacted" you again, i cried really hard.i cant explain why.i dont know, cos you might not treasure this friendship, but i do.i always will, and bestie, i really miss the past.


i gotta learn to expect you the way you are.

BRENDA YAP SCORED A B3 FOR O LEVEL CHINESE.
AND A MERIT FOR O LEVEL CHINESE ORAL.

rather disappointed with myself for getting a 3-pointer.i wanted an A badly, but yeah, this is what you get for not paying attention in class and screwing up your oral.): but i remember mentioning that i honestly told the oral examiner that "dui bu qi, wo bu zhi dao yao jiang shen mo". LOL! and i actually got a merit for being honest.hahaaa, jokeeeee.

kay the rest of the following are special dedications to my beloved peepos, although most of em wont see this.yeapps.

SANDRA LORK&AMANDA SOH: congrats worhhsxz! i love ya guys, smartypants! i'll work hard for an A1 too!:D

RACHEL KOK: aye darling, we retake tgt yeah? must do well wor, shifu!(:

LINA TAY: lol, you same score as prasad sehhhh.haha you can do it dahs!jiayous wor.

TWINTWIN: dont sad luh, sweets.still got another try ma.(: get B4 the next time.can de.trust moisxz.

FELICIA MOMMY: bu yao depress wor.i see you like that very sad wor.daddy also sadsad nerh.:D cheer up kk!

FELICIA BABY: well done yo!get good results for the rest of your subs!

SHERMAINE TAPTAPPP: LOLO ah, cheer up! still got second chance.can take express chinese means got the potential to do well de.i'll be here for ya!

BERLINDA AH-SIAO: your score not bad liao lor.dont sad ner.try to retake kay, can do better one.loveeesxz.

YONGSHENG: hahaha! i did better than you!(: but still, gambatehhh!:D

YISHIH: dont stress kay.this time screw up still got another chance.get your A1 wor.<3

BIRDBIRD: lol la! you got an A leh.dont cry ma.yao happy happy ma.heh

lastly, to my most beloved BESTIE: its been so long since i saw you cry.i know you're disappointed, so am i lor.dont be like this.though i really want you to retake the paper, i know you dont want to.yeapp, i'll support whatever decision you make kay.study hard, and its been really a joy talking to you again.ily very very much.(:



sorry darl, i didnt know you went off to look for me.):

no school today, slept late yesterday.watched olympics basketball.China vs USA.hoho, the scores are horrendous luh.USA beat cheena 101 to 70.like wtfffffff?!
eew, i keep typing wrongly siol.laptop suckkkkaasxz.): met twin at 12 today, funland-ed till 12++.then she ate and off to study.she did physics, me did math.:D we are two good students, cos we really did concentrate.shant elaborate much on details.
hongsheng makes a passable math teacher.(: but his jokes and riddles are ridiculously lor.heh!
thanks for trying to hard to cheer me up.:D

slacked with ys later on and we had singing sessions before my stupid precious came.precious pissed me off again, as usual.waa sians can.gahhhhh:/

dinner-ed with ys and precious.off to home aftermath.(:

special thanks to TWINTWIN for trying to cheer me up with those stupid lame comments and two delicious bars of hershey's chocolates.plus spin me around the thingy till i feel all so faint and now i got a splitting headache.): buttttt! I STILL LOVE YOU SO.kiss kiss~



this is when i love you, no matter what.we'll get better yeah?(:

alright, im back to update.stupid laptop sibei lagggg.me dont like cans! my stupid computer's hard disk spoil siol.): dunno must wait how long for the damn comp to be back at me home.
gahhh. :/ i cant upload or edit any piccas.stupid.
ewww, shit i really dont like this thingy,so hard to operate.and oh, look! my blog views is pathetic lor.shiaaaaaat, i gotta update more mans.boohoos. )':

kay, i forgot what happened on the 6th and 7th alr.so yeah.

8th august 2008
eve of national day.school was a fucking waste of my time.eh, nope.everyone's time.we had to stand under the bloody hot sun for two hours plus and in the end the "connect singapore"thingy ended before we even knew it.stupid bunch of idiots who invented/suggested this thing.
after school darlings(rachel, sandra, amanda, lina) lunched at me house.been sooooooo long since we hung out.then then, i met precious.(: (: (: bus-ed to marina square and he pissed me off again.hais what can i do, i cant blame him for being childish.oh wells, he will grow up someday.
baby is super cute i swear.:D hoho! shant tell ya what we did, but me love him alot alot.:P

9th august 2008
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!(:
lazy to elaborate.

today.rot at home.was happy a moment ago, but now im not.thanks for contributing to my mood swing, gavin ang.



two words: utterly disappointed.
do i even have to remind you that i am your girlfriend?!

yo! brenda is backkkkkk! after like erm.. 4 days?
ive got like sooooooooo much to update luh, but dont know where to start from, so shall just hightlight the so-called nore important stuffz.(: yeah, i miss blogging.yay, apparently, my stupid computer is down.): and i haven been able to get here.so thanks to my dear daddyyyyyyy, he lent me his laptop.for today.so nice uhs.(: ty daddy!

ohkay, rewinddddddddd~~

last friday, 1 august 2008.
met gavin. :D :DDD
went FOP with twin, lina, amandalim, heather, dion, prasad(the birthday boy), junzhang, jason, and yongshengggggg!piccas will be up soon, i promise.cos as i said, my comp's down, so i cant upload anything.eww, sad case. =X

saturday, 2 august 2008.
imma big fat liar.i told my rents i was going for FOP again, but i didnt.me went shopping with my dearest twinzo.(: hmm, me and twin were feeling sian cos of two particular peeps, so we didnt really have the mood to shop.we were just walking up and down at bugis street, where we saw this black bag that we liked.original price : $39.90 ~ so me and twin went to orchard cineleisure to that Ink shop to see if there were any other nicenice designs.and at the end we decided that the one at bugis was best, so we went all the way back to bugis, like two stupid looking fools.yeah, i bought a red belt, cos my old one is like breaking apart? and yeah, me and her bought the same dress.(we bought the dress for the sake of buying something)
met gavin. :D :DDD

sunday, 3 august 2008.
rotted at home.and i missed gavin. D: DDD:

monday, 4 august 2008.
lessons finally resumed after so long a time of useless mock exams.i was happy talking to yishih and birdie.(: hoho, the day was okay for me i guess.oh yeah, something frigging funny happened.
me and renice were walking on the third floor classroom corridor, and there was this old man, relieve teacher ba.he was standing outside a classroom and he suddenly ask me. "are you from 5grace?" so i said, "err.. nope.im from fourpeace, she also." then he started to mumble to himself and then asked me, "eh, which school are you from?" then i started giggling to myself.then i answered him, "err.. this school. -.-" END OF JOKE.lol, me and renice were laughing the whole way can.
met gavin. :D :DDD

TODAY.tuesday, 5 august 2008.
me and renice still laughing about the "which school are you from"joke.hen hao xiao rightttt!XD
gahs.gavin is damn cuteeeeeeeee can.this morning during assembly mrs lim made an announcement to say that the 4N's will be having their mock chinese paper today.then i didnt know beforehand, so i msged gavin ask him faster come school and bring pen.i told him there was mock exam.then he reply me say, no.i just wake up. then i reply him say faster brush teeth, grab your things and come to school, please.then he replied, i in school le la.always think i late.
O.o super cute right! i love the way he tries to be funny, so adorable can.(:
after school, met gavin. :D :DDD
poor thing, he had a headache.): then me and him went home to get panadol.he rode me on siva's bike.i swear he's so cute can.he freaking has no license, i was standing on the bike stand, and ws practically squealing the whole way.cos you know, he keep swerving left and right, plus the speed he was going .... its not fast, its actually slower than someone who is walking.that makes it scarier cos you feel as if youre gonna fall of anytime.but in the end never fall.(: me was holding him tight.hoho! so romantic worsxz. *extremely wide grin*

note: i failed all my subjects except for literature and english.thank you, well done.

oh.me and gavin are back together alr.i think.(:


baby, although we both know we cant last long tgt, i still want you back.cos for another moment of happiness with you, im willing to bear the pain and hurt again.i know this time if you leave me again, it will be much much worse than before, the pain will be doubled, the hurt will be tripled.but you know why i still want this? cos i love you, i really really do.

QUEEN.

Brenda Yap.
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