in this confused state of mind(- reaction), im only filling my empty head with one
word, "EXHAUSTED".
seems like blogging has become a haste, cos its making people misunderstand and having an
awfully wrong ideas as to what is going on, and its hurting some parties.this is definitely no good.):
Girl, i cant possibly be mentioning that someone's name, cos it would be like some personal attack or something, which will get me into trouble.so i cant disclose the identity so openly.i have to repeatedly tell you this again, that wasnt directed at you.i didnt mention any name at all, just a nick.whatever i told you was true, according to my point of view.i know sometimes people can have wrong judgements, and yeah, probably i did misunderstand you for what i saw yesterday.but im thankful you actually understand what im going through and how i feel.i still treat you as my friend, and i assure you there's no hard feelings.dont take to heart what i shouted at you just now, cos i dint mean it.they're just words of anger.i dont blame you too, cos you didnt have any bad intentions too.you can choose to believe or to doubt me.i cant force you on this one yeapps? i'll apologise for misunderstanding you, cos you claimed you are innocent, but it will not be a so-called "public" one, cos i seriously dont think there is a need to.because im not totally at fault too.plus, i think i've already explained the situation clearly alr.i'll tell you that im sorry, and i will mean it from the bottom of my heart.this is a promise, and i wont break it.i'll remember what you said, dont trust people too much and not every girl can keep their promises.there's no escaping from fights and quarrels every now and then.this is part and parcel of life, and this is how we grow up.i guess its just the level of maturity one has and how he/she decides to solve a particular sticky situation.and from what i know, both me and her hasnt grown up yet.guess it will be a matter of time before we both really know what we're doing.no, im not saying we're childish; we're just... not there yet.we've got a lot more to learn and especially me, there are many endless things for me to deal with now, and i gotta face up to some facts yeah.and dear God, im thankful for what happened today because i learned something today, and my friend learnt something too.i think in this little misfortune i had today, i had actually gained something worthwhile, and i've grown a little more.(:
P.S.
snowbelle, i hope you dont do this again, cos i wont allow you to badmouth my dear boy.one more time i hear this, you're it! and so sorry for getting a few innocent parties involved in this thing.SORRY!!!
You're just using me; taking advantage of me; taking advantage of my feelings.
You're pretty good at it too.
It's pretty obvious.
I'm not dumb.
Maybe things have changed and maybe they haven't.
Don't try to figure out what I'm talking about.
Happy and sad day.
You ruined my day.
You're still all that i want.
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