brenda is stuck at home today, and most probably tomorrow too.ive got a fever and its n0t going away.hmm, maybe the fever triggered due to excessive amath.so basically my rents are out for gathering, leaving me alone at home.surprisingly im not bored, just that i tend to wander off and start thinking about some stuff.D:
i have been sitting by my window sill for the past half an hour or so, and now to blog.staring at the sky, i realise that in this world, there are so many beautiful things that we do not know how to appreciate.oh, look!the clouds are so pretty, but pity my phone cannot capture it nicely, and the camera just died on me.the earth is awesome, but we fail to see the magnificient side of it.sometimes i wonder, why do people like to think of all the sad past and not remember the happy things that once happened?i guess its all human nature, i cant seem to be that same me anymore.i wasnt like this, and you all know.
i dont know what's the reason that im holding on, but im really trying my very best already.just give me more time, i can do it.aww, my head hurts now.off to bed now, but im not falling asleep.im online though, and i guess its still early so no one's online.im waiting for someone to nudge me...gahs
"From now on i have nothing to do with you.i dont have a crazy stupid ex like you.i didnt trust you at all, i doubted you all along.dont come and give me crap and say you still love me and all that shit.i dont believe and wont believe." boy, thats what you told me two days ago.from that moment, i gave up on you.you dunno how much your words have hurt me, whether you meant it or not.but i take it that those are really coming from your heart, and be rest assured, im not angry with you.so there isnt a need to apologise.its all my fault, im just disappointed with myself.i gave you everything i could and loved you with all my heart, but in the end you actually felt this way.im just a failure, now and will forever be one.
We could have been infinite. @ 7:28 PM
